Gates of Heaven opened!!

 Jai Guru Ji..

My hands are trembling as I write this satsang after 2 years on my blog.  Last two years had been very very traumatic for  me and my family.  I lost by twin sister husband to Covid in June 2021 and we are still shattered.  Every piece of our being was reduced to crumble.  Had not recovered from this and I lost my father to advanced stage cancer in June 2022, just after a year!!

I won't stay that my faith was shaken but I would like to admit that after all this, everything seemed irrelevant.  Praying, going to mandir, listening to satsangs, attending satsangs or even having conversation with Guruji; everything seemed not so important.  I felt guilty at times and still feel the same but my inner being refuses to accept that why did it happen to our family.  We have been good all throughout our life, have always prayed and believed in God, followed almost all Vachans of Guruji, read holy books; then why?? Why couldn't Guruji save both of them.  And why did it happen to purest of souls?

I went to GK Mandir last week in the evening.  As usual both the outside and inside gates were closed.  I closed my eyes, folded my hands and spoke to Guruji. I said "Guruji, I sometimes feel guilty of not connecting to you the way I used to connect earlier and I still don't know what to say.  If you feel that the connection is still there, then please open the inside door for me.  This is not a test of you as I know that  you can do anything.  It is a test of me to see if I am still worthy of your pure connection.  I promise I will try to pray as I used to do earlier".  I was reciting Mantra Jaap in my mind.  I opened my eyes after10 seconds and the Mandir inside door was entirely open with Guruji Sinhasan and swaroop in its full glory.  I started trembling.  There was no sound of door opening by anyone. For 3-4 minutes I kept standing there and talking to Guruji from outside.  Then a sevadaar aunty came from inside, looked at me and closed the door.

I still have not got any answers from Guruji nor I am trying to seek much answers now.  I just know one thing that He is always with me and my family and whatever happened was as per His will.  He listens to everyone and the connection from his side will always be strong.

Jai Guruji 

Darshan deeje khol kivaad..first darshan in Corona times

 Jai Guruji Ji

28th September 2020

My daughter's 16th birthday and indeed it was very special for all of us.  I had 
pre-ordered customised balloons for her birthday as few of her few friends were coming over in the evening of 28th and the balloons were to to picked from GK on her birthday.

At first, I thought let me send driver to pick balloons but a voice inside me said that I should go.  I will also pay respect to Guruji at his GK Mandir from outside and seek his blessings.

After I picked up the stuff, I went to GK Mandir.  It was closed and the gate was locked from inside, which meant that someone was there inside the Mandir.  I bowed down to Him from outside and mentally said "Guruji, it is a very special day and I have come to see you.  If you wish, please let me have your darshan".  My eyes were closed.

As soon as I opened my eyes, the door opened and the sewadaar uncle came out for some work.  I was so glad that Guruji heard me immediately.  I could pay my respect from outside and see him after so many months of the lockdown and on this special day. "Darshan de diye, khol kivaad"

Thank you so much Guruji..You are amazing!

Jai Guruji

No wish is a small wish..Hair transformation

Jai Guruji

I have very thin hair since my 20s and it is almost like I have a very big bald patch just above my forehead. I met a skin doctor few years back and he suggested me some treatment but it was not very effective and was very cumbersome.  Daily stress lead to more thinning of hair and somewhere I had accepted to live with it.  Soon my hair started greying and due to hair dyes and hair colours that parlours used, they started losing their lustre too.

My hair got damaged to the point that everyone in family and friends starting point out.  They became extremely dry, frizzy and unmanageable.  I didnt knew what to do.  I started oiling my hair regularly, hair masks, hair spas etc etc. but my dry hair refused to be tamed.   When everyone starting pointing out, I became extremely restless and anxious.  I was deeply disturbed and hopeless.I started losing confidence and always kept my hair tied.  On such day, I was extremely sad and I requested Guruji to guide me.  I requested him to show me the path, to regain my hair and my confidence back.

Next morning, I got a call from my friend.  She is also a Guru Sangat and she told me that she had a dream in which she saw me with very lustrous, thick and bouncy hair.  She was completely unaware that I was disturbed due to my hair the previous night. I told her 'How I wish".!!

Same day I started searching online for some hair treatments.  Suddenly a thought struck me that my neighbour had mentioned few years back about a lady in Delhi who makes her own hair packs, hair treatment products and she is miraculous.  I called my neighbour and took that lady's number.  I fixed appointment with her staff and went to her Hair Clinic the next day.  It is a very basic hair clinic with photos of deities everywhere.  I felt as if I have come to some spiritual centre for healing.

Her staff told me to wait as 'Aunty" will see me shortly.  They took me to her.  There I saw an old lady, sitting on a chair, getting her hair cut and few of her staff standing around her.  Her aura is unexplainable. I almost became blank and wasnt able to speak as if I have surrendered on seeing her.  She asked me few questions and then she told her staff about what to do with my hair.  Then she told me something that shook me "Beta, I have done Hanuman Ji puja this morning.  Your hair will become alright.  But, do not gain weight and become fat".  I was numb!!

They started my hair treatment with their natural hair products and told me to visit every week for first month.  Also they gave me the same products for application at home.  I did it religiously as I am of firm believe that "Aunty" is answer of my prayer to Guruji and He has shown me the path.

Today, it is exactly a month of visiting her and my hair transformation is nothing short of a miracle in such a short time.  My hair has already regained so much lustre and new hair growth at the bald patches have started coming in.  All this with natural hair products!!

As I am writing this,  I am so much grateful to Guruji and I am beaming with confidence.  No wish is a small wish for Guruji.  It may not be relevant for others, but between Guruji and me, this is another big blessing that he has bestowed on me.

Guruji, I love you..

Everyday is a blessing - my learnings

        Jai Guru Ji 

 

It was 2014 when I first came to know about Guruji and visited Bade Mandir.  Since then, everyday is spiritual journey blessed by Guruji.  There have been many highs but numerous lows too.  I still remember, there were days when I wanted to give up everything and my faith too was shaken.  But, Guruji was always there holding my hand and guiding me everyday.  He showed me the right path, connected me to right people, gave me strength, confidence and patience, one day at a time.

As I have mentioned earlier, I came out of stress, depression and anxiety without taking any medicines and it was a long process chalked out by Guruji.  I would like to summarise learnings of my journey.  These are just my learnings and it may be different for someone else.

1)  Health is actually your real wealth.  All the wealth and comforts are useless and meaningless if you are not physically AND mentally healthy.

2) Gratitude is a big thing.  One who practices gratitude consciously, will get more to be grateful for.

3) Destinies can be altered with the grace of  Guruji.  I am a live example.

4)  Self effort is important.  We cant just sit and pray and expect things to happen automatically. 

5) Be a good human being first.  God knows your intentions and everything about you. Opinions of others dont matter that much.  

6)  Take care of your responsibilities/family and go with the flow.  

7) No prayer which is  done with pure heart and good intention, goes unanswered.  God will give you what is best for you and not what you expect HIM to do.

8) Dont ask; just believe.  Guruji knows everything.  Even if you  have to ask just say 'Guruji, please bless me'.

9) Be kind to everyone and help as much as possible.  It surely comes back in the form of blessings.

10)  Remember Guruji at all times; thank Him everyday; talk to him; pray; celebrate with Him.

There are many more learning across this path which I may share later.

For now and always ; Thank you Guruji for everything.

Jai Guruji 

Vin boleya sab kish jaanda..London dreams!

Jai Guru Ji..

April, 2018

I had this childhood dream of going to London once in my lifetime.  Don't know why but I never wanted to die before visiting London.  But, I also knew that this was quite difficult for many reasons. 

First, if me and my husband go, then we have to take the entire family too as we never wanted kids feeling left out.  Also,  London being an expensive location, we needed about 7-8 lakhs and personally I dont have that much heart to spend this much at one go.  I have this strange flight & plane turbulence anxiety and sitting for 9 hours feeling anxious was too much for me.

I was going to Amritsar in April, 2018 when I my husband called me at the airport.  He said that there is some office conference coming up in June, 2018 in London.  He asked me if I would like to accompany him.  Without giving any thought, I said YES YES YES!!  When I came back from the conference, I realised that it may be difficult due to above reasons.  I told my husband, If I go then entire family will go, otherwise I am not going.

I also thanked Guruji immensly for this opportunity and left it on HIM to decide.  Within a week, everything got sorted and family tickets were booked!!  Guruji knows even the deepest desires of your heart and he will fulfill them as per his wish and timing.  I never asked or prayed or spoken to Him about this.

June, 2018, the day of Delhi-London Air India flight, I was feeling anxious due to anticipated flight turbulence and how would I cope with it.  I kept chanting Mantra Jaap since morning :).  I am not exaggerating but for the entire duration of Delhi-London and London-Delhi 9 hour flight, there was not even a minute of turbulence.

In London too, it was the time for rains but wherever we went, there was NO rain at that time. We got stuck in a bad traffic on one of our day trips to outskirts of London and most surprisingly the tour bus also got delayed by 30 minutes so we could catch the bus.  In London, they dont even wait for a minute for anyone to start the tour.

All in all, Guruji was with us at that trip and everything turned out to be so perfect.  We came back with lots of Gratitude & happy memories.

Vin boleya sab kichh jaanda...He made my dream came true without even asking for it. Such is the Grace & Mehar of Guruji.

Thank you Guruji for everything.

Jai Guruji.

Jyon Jyon Tera Hukam..

Jai Guru Ji..

My kids so desperately wanted a pet since very long time but me and my mom in law were against it, primarily because I am not too fond of pets and my mom in law thinks that it is a huge responsibility.  We have been saying NO to our kids for a pet for the past 7-8 years.

End of May 2020, my mom in law had gone to stay with her daughter for 3-4 days.  My husband suddenly came and told me ''Lets get a pet".  I thought he is joking.  But he was very serious.  He convinced me for the same and kids got excited.  He also said that he wants to give a surprise (rather shock!) to his mom before she comes back.  Search for a suitable pet started.  As I am very scared of dogs, I wanted a small breed whereas my kids wanted a big breed Labrador.  I had no idea about what are the traits of each breed and I was just going by the size.  There was a huge argument between me and kids. As I slept in the night, I spoke to Guruji and told him "Guruji, I dont know why it is happening so suddenly.  But I believe it is your wish and must be a blessing for kids.  Please give me an answer to which breed is good for us.  When I was about to wake up, a flash of labrador image playing with a kid came before my eyes and I got my answer from Guruji. 

Without thinking anything, I got up and said "Lets get a Labrador".  The small puppy came in our lives that very day.  Such a joy for all of us but in the night I got super anxious that how will I manage the pet. There is no help at our home due to lockdown.  There is so much to do.  Again I cried in front of Guruji swaroop and requested him to give me strength and patience.

Just as I got up after speaking to Guruji, we got a notification that maids are allowed from tomorrow morning!!  Such a relief.  The maid came, I asked her if she would like to work for us for 12 hours (Have been chasing her for this for quite many months) and she immediately said OK since no other house has called her for work.   In this way, Guruji took care of my mom in law's worry too.

Guruji immediately listened to me and by that time I also realised that the pet is Guruji blessing and it is my responsibility to welcome her wholeheartedly and happily and look after her.  Also, I came to know that Labradors are the best dogs for first time parents and they are very kid friendly.  

By Guruji's grace, her de-worming and vaccination went very smoothly with no side effect, contraray to the popular belief.

Guruji has sent the pet to us for a purpose only known to him, but as of now I know that he has blessed our kids and our home with so much positivity and joy in these gloomy times. Kids are so happy and we are spending much needed quality time now.

Maango nahi manno..!!

Thank you so much Guruji..

Gratitude always.

Guruji is always near us..

Jai Guruji

23rd April, 2020

Its been a month since lockdown started and me and my mom in law are doing small satsang of Guruji daily at night.  Once I cook and family finishes the dinner, we do satsang and then I go back to the kitchen, clean the dishes, clean the kitchen etc. etc.

Yesterday as I was preparing dinner, a thought struck me.  Guruji likes cleanliness too much and I thought that if I dont clean the kitchen and the rooms before satsang, Guruji may not like it. He mentioned that cleanliness is imperative for positivity and divine aura.  So, I quicky prepared dinner, cleansed the dishes, cleaned the kitchen, set up drawing and living area as it was supposed to be, changed my clothes, combed my hair, applied some perfume! (ha ha)  and then called my mom in law for starting satsang.

I looked at Guruji Swaroop and very casually remarked ''see Guruji, I think this is the correct way of doing satsang.  May you give me strength daily to follow this routine".  As soon as I lit the jyot, a big splash of water came on my right arm from nowhere".  It was as if someone has put a handful of water on my arm".  Guruji blessed me with this Amrit prashad!

I was too happy to receive his blessings and one more time realised  that Guruji is always near us and he is watching all of us closely.

Thank you so much Guruji..

Jai Guruji!